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Title: To honor or favor
Rating: G
Challenge[ profile] hawaii_5_0_100 prompt, parenthood
Characters: Danny, Rachel, Grace
Summary: (Pre-series) Danny comes home after an event every cop dreads and fears.
Disclaimer: I don't own Hawaii Five-O. But I wish I did.

It’s three twenty-seven in the morning when he gets home from the hospital. He finds them in the nursery, Rachel standing in the doorway and Grace still sleeping in her crib.

“He didn’t make it,” Rachel says flatly and Danny can hear all the usual accusations in the things she doesn’t say. Things like, ‘I’m so sorry,’ and ‘Are you okay?’

It’s an old fight and he just doesn’t want to deal with it right now. Ignoring Rachel’s protests, just ignoring Rachel, he crosses the room, scoops Grace into his arms, holding her tight to his chest as she wakes and snuffles at his neck.

“She should be hungry now, huh?” He asks, sitting in the rocking chair his grandmother had used when his Dad was a baby and that his mother had used with him. “Go get me a bottle, please.”

Rachel huffs but does as she’s asked. Danny rocks Gracie gently as he waits for Rachel to return, petting her cheek, inhaling her sleepy, warm baby scent.

“Danny, we need to talk about this,” Rachel says when she returns, handing him the warm bottle of baby formula.

“Not right now,” he replies, offering Grace the bottle, which she tucks into like she hasn’t eaten in six days instead of six hours.

Where his princess had inherited her mom’s pretty olive skin, dark hair and cute nose, she seems to have only gained his voracious appetite. She’s built like a little line-backer and Danny couldn’t be any more in love with her.

“You don’t know what it’s like. Every time there’s something about a cop being shot—“

“I said not now, Rachel.”

Rachel heaves the put-upon sigh that she’s so good at but, thankfully, she leaves the nursery without another word. Danny heaves a sigh of his own; one of relief.

He knows he’s losing Rachel. It’s to the point he’s not sure he had her in the first place. But, every time he starts to question RachelandDanny, every time he starts to think getting married was a mistake, he thinks about the sweet little girl lying in his arms. He thinks about how his heart swells when he hears her giggle. He thinks about how he can’t breathe when she looks at him with her big, brown eyes. He thinks about how, with every second he’s away from her, he’s counting down the minutes until he can be with her again.

He thinks about all those moments and of Grace and he knows that nothing that led to her could ever be a mistake. She is the very definition of her name and he doesn’t know what he ever did to deserve her but he thanks God for her every day.

“I love you so much,” he whispers to his daughter and then chuckles when she grabs at his nose.

on 2010-10-08 09:34 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
You retrace very well how Danno is a great father...

on 2010-10-08 04:13 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you!

Sorry about futzing up my posting on the comm.

on 2010-10-08 04:14 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
No prob! It makes just my tagging easier when I've the correct header and title... :p

on 2010-10-08 12:48 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
This was heart-wrenchingly beautiful. You managed to pack a world of story into just a few words and it was perfect.

on 2010-10-08 04:15 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank so much for the awesome comment! *g*

on 2010-10-08 03:23 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Aw~ that was sweet and beautiful. Thank you.

on 2010-10-08 04:16 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you for reading and commenting! I really appreciate it.

on 2010-10-08 03:38 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
This was lovely and heartfelt and perfect.

on 2010-10-08 04:16 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you!

on 2010-10-08 04:36 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Aw! what a beautiful image of Danny holding his daughter!

on 2010-10-09 02:23 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thanks! Oh, how I wish we could count on this show to do flashbacks because I would literally pay them cash to have a scene like this just so I can see Scott Caan holding a baby.

on 2010-10-08 09:38 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
This is a great before fic- Danny absolutely enchanted with his little Gracie-girl (would love to do a video when we get more scenes) and also, the cracks in his marriage. We all love our Danno, but it's nice to see that he had some part in it (his inability to open up).

on 2010-10-09 02:50 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you!

Danny absolutely enchanted with his little Gracie-girl (would love to do a video when we get more scenes) and also, the cracks in his marriage.

The cracks were intentional even if I piggy-backed them in on the back of the parenthood prompt.

We all love our Danno, but it's nice to see that he had some part in it (his inability to open up).

*points to icon*

Wow. I actually hadn't thought of it that way when I wrote it. I was really just looking at it as him not wanting to deal with her at that particular moment. I mean, he has just gotten home from keeping vigil at the hospital while one of his colleagues was dying. Her poking at a fresh wound, especially when they've had the same argument before, is the last thing he needed.

I am definitely thinking about how Danny would have been at the end of the marriage now, though, thanks to your comment. He's so freaking outspoken, you've got to wonder if he was the same way or if he just retreated into himself, figuring he was yelling at a brick wall?

on 2010-10-09 01:15 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Don't get me wrong, I'm totally 'Team Danno' (if such a side exists) but I could see that- inability to open up about his job, whether his intentions were good or not (not wanting to burden or scare her) as contributing to Rachel picking at him and maybe growing to 'nag' him.

on 2010-10-09 04:27 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Team Danno totally exists LOL. But no, yeah, I don't think Danny was an innocent party at all. Just seeing the side of him we see with McGarrett, he's totally high-strung and not shy about saying exactly what's on his mind but I could see him trying not to bring it home. Even though he totally does whether he wants to or not.

on 2010-10-12 05:39 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Ahh- wonderful!I love the image of Danny holding his daughter.

on 2010-10-13 04:25 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you!

on 2010-12-15 07:31 pm (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Absolutely beautiful. Very well written and my heart just went out to Danny to have these mixed feelings of being blessed to have Grace but to be sad to think he's losing Rachel. Very well written.

on 2010-12-16 02:00 am (UTC)
Posted by [identity profile]
Thank you very much for the kind comment! I'm tickled folks are still finding this. *g*


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